R – Two


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R, you are TWO today!

I keep shaking my head in disbelief. The last two years have FLOWN by!

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I – Three

I, you are three today.


This birthday has Mommy a little emotional! Just in the last week or two, you’ve shown signs of definitely being three – big, apparent moves out of toddlerhood and into big kid-dom and it’s been very bittersweet!

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Little R Update – 40 Weeks!


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How far along? 40 weeks today!

Total weight gain: I’ve lost a little bit and remained stagnant for the past couple of days. It’s looking like I may top out at 35 lbs gained for this pregnancy.

Food cravings: Still protein, warm cozy drinks, comfort foods like soups and pasta.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Only stress, for the most part.

Symptoms: My poor pelvis is done. My muscles are constantly pulling from the weight and the extra strain of him being dropped. I’ve taken to calling my back “rice Krispies” because it snap, crackle, pops all the time! I’ve had another bout of false labor, with scattered braxton hicks every day. Still unending heartburn.

Mood: Very very done. I also have a lot more peace and hope regarding this birth than I have had yet, so I’m very thankful for that.

Sleep: Still not great nor horrible.

Dreams: None that I remember.

Kicking Patterns: Still a chill little dude who occasionally starfishes all his limbs out. He will also occasionally settle part of his body on my sciatic nerve, which is all kinds of uncomfortable.

Labor Signs: Not much except another bout or two of false labor. He seems pretty comfy at the moment, so I have a feeling he’ll be a couple of days overdue at least.

Appointments: I have my 40 week appointment tomorrow, which will include an NST (non stress test) and an AFI (amniotic fluid index). Both of these tests are noninvasive and will make sure Little R is healthy and my body is still a healthy place for him.

Preparations for baby: Both our bag and the girls’ bag is essentially packed, with the few things that would need to be thrown in right before we leave assembled and ready to go. The Christmas tree is fully decorated, and most of the other decorations are up. We’ve made progress on getting the house cleaned (or at least cleaned enough, at this point). We are just about as ready as we can be. =)


Hopefully, the very next blog post will be introducing Little R. We can hardly wait to meet our son!

Little R Update – 39 Weeks


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How far along? 39 weeks, 1 day!

Total weight gain: Nearly 40 lbs. This is the most I’ve gained with any of my pregnancies – one of the many ways this pregnancy has been different from the girls! My weight gain has definitely slowed over the last week or so, so we’ll see if I pack on any more. =)

Food cravings: Protein, smoothies, raisin bran crunch, nearly anything comforting and full of flavor, earl grey tea lattes. Veggies still always sound good. =)

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not lately, thank goodness!

Symptoms: Terrible SI joint/pelvic pain. It’s not the SPD (symphysis pubis dysfunction) that I had with Little I (thank the LORD), but I still have enough extra relaxin in my system that my pelvic joints especially go out of whack within 24-48 hrs of being adjusted. Lots of heartburn, a few bouts of false labor, and generally feeling like a beached whale. =)

Mood: A bit stressed. We still have lots to do, but the nesting has really kicked in for both Ry and I and we’re both praying/hoping that we’ll be able to knock out the last few things on our to-do list before Little R comes. Getting things on the list checked off is a big emotional lift for me, so I’m hoping to feel better and better as the week goes on and we continue to get things done.

Sleep: It’s been hit or miss. If I can get my brain to quiet down, I’ll get 3-4 hours of sleep (I think) before needing to wake up fully to very slowly and painfully turn over, where I hopefully sleep/doze for another 2-3 hours. I’m trying to nap/doze for an hour or so during the day while Little I naps, and when I can manage to do so, it really helps my mood and energy.

Dreams: None lately that I can remember.

Kicking Patterns: He is still a chill little dude for the most part, although he does party-hearty around the 12 o’clock hour, be it noon or midnight. Then it’s like he’s playing jump-rope or something! He will occasionally try to starfish all his limbs out, and of course, my pesky uterine walls get in the way, so he tries to push them against me harder . . . I’ve had to actually smack my own stomach/his hand/foot a time or two to get him to stop. I know. I chuckled about it too. =) However, he has not done the kicking up under my ribs like N did, nor the boxer punching to my nethers like Little I, so I’m very grateful. He has, for the most part, been very kind to his mommy in utero.

Labor Signs: I finally had my first bout of false labor a few days ago. I have a history of at least 3-4 bouts of false labor before the real thing, so I was waiting for them to start. I’ve had another bout of false labor since then. Little R also dropped yesterday, which was great in the sense that it’s so much easier to take a deep breath and I can eat more! Not so great in the sense that he has settled heeeeeavily into my pelvis, which is cranky anyway. I keep telling myself it will not be much longer, it will not be forever!

Appointments: I had my 39 week appointment today, and it went well. I am between 3-4 cm dilated, 50% effaced, his heart rate was great, he is head down, and my blood pressure was great. I tested positive for Group B Strep, which makes me 3 for 3. I’m not thrilled about this as it means I will be hooked up to antibiotics for 4 hours of my labor. I labored much quicker with Little I than N, so I’m hopeful to get the full 4 hours in without being fully dilated, otherwise I will have to labor through the contractions fully dilated and not be allowed to push (yes, it happened. It was as fun as it sounds).

Preparations for baby: Things have slowly but surely been getting done. So far, lactation smoothie mixes, padsicles, cookies for nurses, labor aid materials and a few freezer meals have been either made or purchased. We’re probably halfway through getting the hospital bag and the girls’ bag packed. Rock n’ play, baby seat, and swing covers have all been washed and just need to be reassembled. We’re hoping to finish the Christmas decorating tomorrow. We need to wash our car seat covers and the infant insert, finish cleaning the apartment (as best we can with two littles), and grab a few more nursing essentials and few clothing items for Little R, which I hope to do tomorrow. My new pump arrived today. Whew, just reading this list makes me feel better. We really have gotten a lot done, and there’s just a bit more left to do. =)


It’s still so surreal to me that I’ll be holding my son (my son!) so soon. Please pray for me as his delivery nears. There were a few traumatic things that happened during and after Little I’s birth that give me a lot of anxiety as I head towards another birth. I need and ask for prayers for peace and that I will place my hope and trust in the Lord where it belongs.

I can’t wait to meet you, Little R!

Little R Update – 28 Weeks


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How far along? 28 weeks today!

Total weight gain: Officially 20 lbs. I’m hoping to only gain 10-12 more, but we’ll see how that goes with the holidays approaching. =)

Food cravings: Protein and veggies! I was telling Ry the other day that, while I have actually craved veggies periodically throughout this pregnancy, they also always sound good, even if I’m not craving them. This has never happened to me in my LIFE, pregnant or not! I generally don’t want them plain, but with a vinaigrette, or a dip (We’ve been making a yogurt ranch dip – YUM), or butter, salt, and pepper. Eggs don’t sound good in the mornings, but I’ve been having scrambled egg sandwiches for lunch pretty frequently. Raisin bran crunch (with extra raisins!) or a toasted bagel with cream cheese or peanut butter and honey have been consistent breakfasts for me.

Symptoms: I can definitely tell I’m entering the third trimester – I felt my energy levels noticeably drop this week. My bones and joints are just simply out of whack as well – my pelvis and lower back especially feel off, not in sync, like everything is just a touch out of alignment. This isn’t necessarily painful, but consistently uncomfortable, like chinese water torture. My left SI joint is still grumpy at me and has started affecting my sciatic nerve on that leg. I’m more off-balance, clumsy, forgetful, and front-heavy (obviously). Still some occasional heartburn – I just finally finished my first bottle of Tums this pregnancy (I was already on bottle number 2-4 at this point with both the girls). The Braxton hicks have definitely picked up as well.

Mood: Back and forth. I’ve had pretty bad anxiety this pregnancy and it’s been acting up the last few weeks. The holidays are ever impending and I think the nesting urge is starting to kick in early because I want to constantly be DOING things in my house – grumpy joints and bones make this harder than I would like. I’m working hard to stay positive!

Sleep: Somewhat better – the weather has been cooler, which helps. Little I is going through a sleep regression – she’s taking eons (and I do mean for.eh.ver) to go to sleep, and she’s been having a wailing, screaming wake-up that lasts about an hour before she calms down and goes back to sleep at least once a night this whole week. This has definitely disrupted all of our sleep cycles, so we’re hoping she’s turning the corner on the regression soon.

Dreams: I’m definitely dreaming, but I haven’t been remembering many of them.

Kicking Patterns: This little guy is a chill dude for the most part. He’s definitely become a bit more active over the last few weeks, but his movements are still pretty contained and small, with a big kick or flip occasionally. N delighted in kicking up under my ribs, and Little I gloried in punching my nethers with shocking accuracy, so the fact that Little R has yet to do either is much appreciated. He stays loooooooow in my uterus, with movement every 2-4 hours, but also long periods of quiet where I assume he’s sleeping.

Appointments: My 28 week appointment was today – all great news! We had another ultrasound today, which is unusual – most healthy pregnancies only have two ultrasounds, at 8ish and 20ish weeks. At my 20 week ultrasound, they noticed my placenta was a touch closer to my cervix than was considered fine, so they wanted me to come back in to check that the placenta had moved away from the cervix as the uterus grew (like it’s supposed to). No one was stressed about it, so we weren’t either, and it was another opportunity to see our boy! Everything looked great – my placenta was in perfect position, all his measurements were great, and we got another great look at his face, with the umbilical cord sneaking in to make an appearance. =)


One more with his sweet little hand. He kept trying to hide. =)


One more, I can’t help it. =D


His little face has DEFINITELY filled out in the last 8 weeks! Those cheeks! I die. The tech said he is currently 2 lbs, 10 oz, which is perfect, and he should gain about an ounce or two a day.

More good news – I PASSED my 1-hour glucose test! *fist pump* BOO YA! My blood pressure was great, and my doctor noted that my hemoglobin level was fantastic – I am at a 12, which is fabulous for small, typically anemic me, especially considering that I lost a lot of blood after Little I’s birth and nearly needed a blood transfusion – I left the hospital when she was born around a level 8, after having dropped to a 5.5. So they checked my hemoglobin level when they ran my glucose test, and my doctor is thrilled that I am at this level prior to delivery – I am too!

Preparations for baby: I’m working on the beginnings of a registry (Target so far), we’ve purchased the ingredients to make lots of freezer meals, with the plan to get through a bunch of them this week, I pre-registered with the hospital, got my flu shot, turned in my maternity leave notice at work, and have a working list of the rest of the things that need to get done (it’s a loooooong list!)


12ish weeks till we meet our boy! A few months after N was born, the Lord promised me a son. It was a clear whisper, a burrowed seed of joyful hope, and I kept it close to my heart. For a few years now, I’ve wondered if that promise was perfectly fulfilled with Cormac  Or even if he had already given us two sons, since we are not sure of Asher‘s gender. Preparing now to meet Little R, reveling in the knowledge that we have two, possibly three sons, reminds me that He keeps His promises in the sweetest of ways, in His perfect timing.

Little R being added to our family at this time is becoming part of our family’s testimony, and we are so thankful for the story God is writing.


Little R Update – 25 Weeks


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How far along? 25 weeks today! So happy to be past the point of viability – always a big milestone for me since my miscarriages.

Total weight gain:  Almost 20 lbs! This was my first pregnancy with weight gain in the first trimester – generally I dry heave so much that it’s hard to get anything down! However, the weight definitely starting packing on right from the start with this boy. I think it was partly because I was 1) at my lowest pre-pregnancy weight ever and 2) I was still nursing/pumping for Little I. Pretty sure my body said “You don’t have enough current fat reserves to grow a baby and produce breastmilk at the same time, so gain 5 lbs immediately!” lol. I gained around 22 lbs with each of the girls, but it will be a bit more with Little R. It’s totally fine with me as long as we’re both healthy!

Food cravings:  The first tri was very difficult this time in terms of food. I was needing to eat something substantial and protein-filled every 2 hours or so ALL DAY LONG or I would feel incredibly sick. With the girls, my morning sickness and dry heaving would let up after I could get breakfast down, but with Little R, it was an all day long thing unless I was eating CONSTANTLY. To make things worse, almost nothing sounded good, especially nothing in the dairy department, besides milk. I lived on cream of wheat, chicken strips, and asiago chicken ranch sandwiches from Wendy’s.

Now, most foods are ok – I can eat eggs, which is delightful, considering I didn’t want a single egg EVER during my pregnancy with Little I. I still crave protein, and I’m wanting foods that have lots of flavor, i.e. Olive Garden’s salad with that fabulous dressing, steak with A1 sauce, chinese food with soy sauce, salads or pasta with balsamic vinegar. I want the tangy, salty, bold flavors. I’ve also been really craving veggies and salads, which I have occasionally, because it’s hard to make a salad with enough (healthy!) calories to still fill me up.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not too much anymore, thank goodness. Now I feel a bit queasy if I get too stressed, too hot, or too dehydrated.

Symptoms: Acne! I’ve had way more acne this time around – I’m wondering if it’s Little R’s testosterone in my system. Some scattered Braxton Hick’s here and there, nothing too uncomfortable. I definitely have some extra relaxin in my system, as my left SI joint likes to act up and make walking impossible nearly every day. However, it does not seem to be heading toward the SPD (symphysis pubis dysfunction) that I had with Little I, for which I am IMMEASURABLY grateful. A little bit of heartburn, but nothing like the fiery flames I had with the girls.

Mood: Anxious. I’m beginning to feel the time ever quickening towards Christmas, and there is much to be done and taken care of before Little R gets here.

Sleep: It depends on how Little I sleeps, mostly. It’s also very hard for me to get comfortable right now – I go from side to back to side to back to side over and over throughout the night. The heat wave we’ve been having has not helped either. I’m thankful for what little sleep I do manage to get, but it’s definitely not enough.

Dreams: I had many many dreams before we found out Little R’s gender, all about him being a boy. I’ve also had quite a few lucid dreams, which I also experienced with N. I rarely remember any of them, but they’re pretty neat to experience considering pregnancy seems to be the only time I have them.

Kicking Patterns: I felt him move around 16 weeks. Ry felt him move around 19 weeks, which is the earliest he has ever felt any of our babies. Little R is starting to bop around a little more and occasionally move farther up into the uterus, but for the most part he stays very loooow in my pelvis and moves just enough to let me know he’s alive lol. My girls were movers and shakers and moved all around the place, so this has been quite a different experience!

Appointments: Had an appointment today, and everything looked great! His heart rate was in the 130’s, and my blood pressure was healthy. I was given my glucose drink to take the glucose tolerance test within the next few weeks – one of my least favorite parts of pregnancy. O well. N was thrilled to hear Little R’s heartbeat again. =)

Preparations for baby: He has a little onesie to come home in, as well as his own little Seahawks jersey/onesie to match his Daddy while cheering on the ‘Hawks. =) There is still much to be done: we need a new car! We do not currently have a car that can hold three carseats. We plan to move Little I into N’s room ASAP, so she can nap and hopefully spend most of the night there. We need boy clothes! It’s definitely been fun walking through the boy departments, when we’ve never had much cause to go there before. =)

It’s still so surreal to think we’re having a SON and that we’ll meet him in about 15 weeks!